You don't know what you don't know.

Anonymous asked: where are you? you haven't been on in s0oOo long!

i have been! i have just been posting things to private a lot because i need somewhere to write things down where other people cant see it.

Positive energy from now on.

im done being lethargic. im over being stressed out of my mind. im over being your “friend”. im over high school bullshit drama. im ready to be positive instead of negative all the time. im gonna start going to yoga again. im gonna start working out again and getting my lazy ass back in shape. I think me and my mom are gonna do that Extreme Challenge boot camp again, which i am excited about because its such a great workout. I have already been eating healthier, but it could use a little improvement. im working on getting a job. im gonna start doing things for me instead of for everyone else. im excited for college. im just ready to be independent and meet new people. im excited for new experiences and responsibilities. im excited for college swimming. im excited for summer. the pool got fixed today, which is good. im gonna spend as much time as i can with friends this summer. shanny and helen especially. helen is gonna be gone most of the summer :( but it is a great experience for her and i am so proud of her for going! ill just have to spend a ton of time with her in june before she leaves. shanny will be around as far as i know. i wanna go to the beach this summer. i wanna spend time with my extended family. im so excited for fourth of july up in center conway at auntie lindas with all the cousins and storyland. kelley and i agreed that if no one ese wants to go we will drive ourselves up there because we want to go so bad. im also excited to go up to meredith and hang with my favorite aunt and uncle! im excited for my cousin shannons grad party and my grad party because ill get to see my auntie sherry who is awesome and i love her. ill also get to see my moms side of the family which i NEVER EVER see so that will be fun. OH and we might be going on a cruise which would be AWESOME because now we are all older so we can kinda just do whatever we want. oh and if youre reading this which you probs are, i DO want you to be in my college experience. i want to hang out this summer, like we did last summer. i want to get back to how things were, even though idk if thats possible. at least get back to being friends. i mean i still consider you a friend, but i feel like we dont really talk outside of free period when we used to talk and hang out 24/7. its just weird to think that we dont really talk anymore when we used to talk every day. whatever i mean it is what it is. maybe we just grew apart, plus that other thing that happened. idk. anyways i want this summer to be great. i want to get things done and spend time with people that i really like and want to spend time with. this summer i need to get a whole new wardrobe. i need clothes other than baggy tshirts and sweats and athletic shorts. i mean i just dont want to look like a scrub 24/7. and i need shoes. problems of going to catholic school. wow this is really long. okay bye.